My little Ferrari

Would there not be something wrong if I wasn’t slightly biased?

I mean, the creature did come from my womb. It is my duty to protect and defend.

When another person tells me that my child has learning disabilities, of course, my guard goes sky high immediately and I jump up and down in her defense. But, lately, my jumping has begun to drop lower and lower and gradually moved to a standing position which includes nodding at various points in the conversation ( in this particular case, obvi ). The realization has hit and the only way I can help her to improve is to notice the *problem* and work on it, with her. 

You see, I have been subconsciously avoiding the obvious for so long – and hiding from the so-called truth. And for what reason? Because society tells us we need to be good in every subject and achieve 80% or higher. Or we will fail as human beings. And yes, of course, every parent wants the best for their children. But, is this really what is best for your child? Yes, good grades help, but not when you are drowning in your school work at seven years old and struggling to concentrate for more than thirty seconds. My biggest fear right now is that she is growing despondent at a fast rate. 

Let’s face it Kristen is probably not going to be a mathematician or a scientist and that’s okay. It really is.  However, at this point, the teachers aren’t quite getting it and this proves to be incredibly frustrating and completely draining at times. I mean, I don’t even get it at the best of times. But we persevere, hour by hour.

Last month, after receiving Kristen’s report I knew I could no longer fight the growing snow ball. It was now time to roll with it and I needed a professionals opinion so that we could make some changes and more than anything, I could learn how to deal with and understand my daughter – let me tell you, this has been a bumpy road – but the truth is, no one is at fault. 

The Doctor came back with the results I could have given you four years ago. She was diagnosed A.D.D. Big whip right? Every kid on the block is A.D.D or A.D.H.D nowadays. 

But, Kristen really is struggling daily. I can pick it up from a mile away, especially being a part of this statistic too. Concentration is almost non-existent which makes learning and functioning difficult for her. Even more so because she is a bright child. I can just imagine how frustrating it must be for her brain to receive information but not quite connect the dots. And, unfortunately, if I don’t do anything about this soon, she is going to struggle in her fundamental years as a child as well as throughout her schooling career and so forth. 

The recommendations from the Doctor was to look at medication, eye testing, speech therapy and/or possibly a remedial school as well as keeping her back a year. To say my current emotional state is stretched to capacity would be a complete understatement. The stress levels have sky rocketed and this journey has been an emotional rollercoaster but I have decided to take it all one step at a time. Phase one – results – phase two – results etc. At this point, that is all I can manage. And, I think that’s okay too.

I watched a video recently on how A.D.H.D should be explained to children – this totally inspired me. The Doctor explained that A.D.H.D is the most wonderful thing to have. You have a Ferrari in your brain, a fast and gorgeous Ferrari and this means that you can be a champion! How fantastic is that? I mean, who wouldn’t want a Ferrari for brains? The only problem is, is that the brakes you happen to have are for bicycle and this means slowing down can be a little problematic. You can’t slow down when you need to or stop when you need to, but if you work on it, you can learn how to use your brakes and strengthen them. Which in turn will make the outcome absolutely brilliant!

And let me tell you, Kristen is brilliant, in her own way. She really is. Her art work is on top form. She is fantastic at drama and dancing. I can stand and stare at my daughter in awe, watching her dance across the room with elegance and pride. Her confidence is so high she has the biggest heart. Kristen is a good person with good values and at the end of the day, isn’t that what we want for our children? I somehow learn from her every single day and this in itself makes it all worth it. 

What I am trying to say is, through the ups and downs, I am going to hold her little hand throughout this journey and we are going to make her the best bloody creative the world has ever seen. Because if the world didn’t have any Kristen’s, it would be a morbidly dull place.